Well, I haven't posted in a while so here's a quick update..... Brian's last unemployment check was coming up and we felt like we had hit a wall. We wouldn't be able to live on our own anymore. We decided to take my mom up on her offer to let us live with them. We are so grateful to have somewhere to go. And to go to such a lovely place is a huge bonus! We decided to move on August 11th. We were packing up the place when Brian received a call from South Jordan City saying that he got the job as their Senior Accountant!! Hallelujah right!!! So relieved and happy! I can't describe the weight that was lifted. It was like I literally felt someone take a burden off of my shoulders. So he started his job on August 13th. It all turned out perfectly. We are settling in and making good progress in organizing and unpacking our stuff here at my parents' house.
Our awesome church/ward helped us move. They are incredible people and I am so grateful that we were able to live in a ward where everyone is humble, loving, generous of time, spirit, kindness, and substance. I am so happy that our children had them as examples to look to. We all felt like a we were part of a ward family. We were all so incredibly sad to leave. Even Brian cried and was upset to leave the ward. Our Bishop's wife said through, her tears, that we all prayed for Brian to get a job so we need to remember that this is an answer to our prayers, even though we hoped the job would be in Price still so we could stay there. I had some wonderful friends there that were hard for me to leave. The kids loved school and their friends. We are sad to leave them behind but we feel stronger and better after having had the experiences we did in that ward and town. We will miss them but we each will take a part of their examples with us and will hopefully be better for it.
Which brings me to this morning...today was 7th Grade Day at Zack's school.There are over 1200 students in this school.WOWZERS!!! They have the 7th graders do kind of a practice run today--------they go to each of their classes for 15 minutes and then they have an assembly at the end. The buses are also running today. Zack will ride the bus but today he wanted me to take him to school. He got out of the car and walked to the sidewalk, then he turned around and gave me his best smile and waved at me, then he slowly walked to the doors. With each step he took, I felt a different part of my heart breaking. Then I drove home and cried. It's so hard to move and start a new school but this is junior high...JUNIOR HIGH! Not only was I thinking about how hard it might be for him to feel like a part of things and to make good friends, but I was thinking about my sweet little boy and how fast he has grown. I remember how hard it was for me to leave him at preschool. And in kindergarten. And each new school that this poor kid has had to go to. And how easily he has made friends and fit in in the past. He's in junior high. It's a whole different ball game. I want him to always stay my happy, compassionate, friendly, sweet little boy. I don't want him to change. I know that big changes will come over the next few years. I have less than 7 more years with him before he goes on a mission. Then there will be college and marriage and family. I have be so incredibly blessed to have him in my life for the past 12 years. SOOO blessed!!! He's an amazing human being and such a good example to everyone around him. His teachers and fellow students have always talked about what a great helper he is to other kids and how just plain NICE he is. I am SOOO proud of this boy of mine. I have been so nostalgic lately. It makes me sad to think about how junior high means he's slipping just a little more away from me. This has been the hardest move yet. Well, moving from Salem was at least as hard if not worse but this had been super hard for sure. I just can't do this anymore. I hope and pray that Brian's job is permanent and that we can actually settle and stay somewhere for a change. It has to be hard for Zack. I can only imagine how hard. I moved right before my junior year of high school and it was one of the most difficult times in my life. So hard! I can't imagine moving as much as we have, or attending as many different schools as poor Zack has. He's so resilient and adjusts so well, thank heavens! I k,now he's going to be an amazing 7th grader and that he'll be just fine, I just worry. I'm a mother and a woman. What choice do I have but to worry. It just comes with the territory. Max and Matthew start school tomorrow.I can't wait to see how goes. Then it will be just me and Gracie. I can't wait for that. I think it will be a sweet, fun time!. I am anxiously waiting to hear all about Zack's day. Sometimes being the mom is really hard!
